Fail End Drive

Turns out that being the little fish in a big pond is not that fun. Maybe I'm just bitter because I spent the last two days trying to beat the original Dungeon Keeper into submission, but it's true. I just take pride in the fact that I was the first one on YouTube to post all 20 levels of Dungeon Keeper 2. Pathetic eh? Especially since about a month later a bigger and more successful guy posted all the videos himself and got about 20000 views on each. Now a bunch of other people are posting Dungeon Keeper 2 videos. I might be a little jealous.

So as I said, I'm working on trying to get Dungeon Keeper 1 to record with SOMETHING. I've tried three video recording software, two operating systems, a ton of different modes and a lot of screaming. Looks like my final option is to figure out how to get it to work in DOSbox, which will be another raging tantrum on my part. I think it would work though. I'm determined, even though the videos are going to be more or less ignored by the world. I like giving everything my all and have it amount to nearly nothing in the end. Yay!

In the meantime I'm recording my pathetic attempts at playing the first Half Life because I'm bored out of my mind. I need to find a job (yes I'm still having issues with that) and I need to find it fast. I think I might be desperate enough to return to Staples. I have a year's experience there and I pretty much remember all that the job requires so...

I've come to the conclusion that I'm a jack of trades. I've never really been good at anything. As I said before writing is what I'm best at, and even then I wind up at an epic fail dead end. Thankfully I've made some progress this year. I think I just need to stop caring. I'd be happier that way. If I do end up posting the Half Life videos, I am going to emphasize that I'm not recording and playing them to show off or impress...just to have fun. What's the point in doing stuff if you can't have a little fun along the way?